You have a bamboo horse waiting to be checked

Chapter 124

In the end, Qi Zhongshan didn't know how he left from the door of the proprietress' office.

He stood at the entrance of the corridor and looked at the back door of the classroom for a while, but did not go back.

Before reuniting with Ling Yifeng, he did not skip class.

Every time he skipped class, it was because he was worried about Ling Yifeng, and he didn't dare to persuade him to go back. He could only wait patiently beside him, waiting for him to turn his head and look at him, waiting for him to listen to him, and waiting for him to go back with him obediently.

Only this time Qi Zhongshan did not want to see Ling Yifeng.

He knew that Ling Yifeng would not come to him.

Ling Yifeng will never take the most uncertain step in any interpersonal relationship, he needs other people's sense of security.

Especially in romantic relationships.

Qi Zhongshan walked out of the senior three teaching building and began to wander around the school aimlessly.

Although he has a good relationship with the teachers and classmates at the school, it may be due to nature. When he graduated from junior high school, Qi Zhongshan didn't miss his alma mater very much. At most, he followed Ye Yiming back to school to visit his teachers a few times.

He thought it would be the same in high school, but he was proven wrong.

A person will miss and be reluctant, because the time entrusted to a certain thing or person is too good, and it will never return, it cannot be copied, let alone surpassed, such as alma mater, such as youth.

Along the way, the flowers in the flower beds bloomed and withered, and the bushes were covered with dead leaves. When they were still in bloom, he once sat behind the flower beds with the boy he liked and talked about the ideals and love in the past and present. He kissed that The person who can always find ten thousand reasons to be depressed bites, and gets kicked by that person.

In front of the long steps of the administrative building, he once covered the man in his arms with an umbrella, hugged him unscrupulously in the crowded crowd, and said I love you in his ear under the cover of the umbrella.

On a sunny day, in the transparent glass of the library, the man was reading a book, sitting by the floor-to-ceiling window, lost in thought. The warm sunlight made him seem to be plated with gold, and reflected in his eyes, blooming a different kind of brilliance.He said that we seem to be sitting in a bright place, but in fact we are living inside the glass. We have no way to get in touch with the wind and breathe fresh air like others. We do not live under the same blue sky as others.Qi Zhongshan remembered that he opened the window at that time, stood with him at the window and stretched out his hands. The wind blew up the long white curtains, covering them both inside. The man quickly tiptoed and kissed him on the tip of his nose. one time.He clearly knew that from an outsider's point of view, these were two rejuvenated idiots, but Qi Zhongshan just found it interesting and even beautiful.

There is also the old teaching building of the Holy Land of Dating and the piano room filled with pink bubbles, the cafeteria where they sit and eat face to face, and often bring Ye Yiming with them, the canteen where self-study and class are finished in the evening, and they make appointments for running during the day and midnight Turning into the playground where you can watch the stars, you will occasionally encounter a grove of young couples, and even a school infirmary where the two of them are so tired that nothing happens...

Until the last playground back door.

The place where all the ambiguous relationship began.

The place where the first argument after the reunion, the first hug, and the first confession happened.

Qi Chongshan sat there for an unknown how long, when he heard footsteps, he raised his head subconsciously, and saw Ling Yifeng panting heavily.

He immediately stood up subconsciously, but was at a loss for a while.

"If I don't come to you, you won't come to me, right?" Ling Yifeng's voice was choked up, "I'm here to look for you, are you going to ignore me again?"

"I told you to learn from beggars, and you will learn from me?" Ling Yifeng coughed and threw a large bag of clothes on him, "Why don't you learn from me? , just follow me and skip class when you get angry? Are you capable?"

"Hurry up and find a place to take a bath and change clothes, and sit in the wind in the cold weather!" Ling Yifeng said impatiently, "It's up to you, wash it or not, I'm leaving."

Qi Zhongshan was stunned for a while before he said, "Do you think there will be boarders lending my water card?"

"You don't know how to read it yourself," Ling Yifeng sighed, "I have a water card, I asked Xie Hao to borrow it."

"Where are the clothes?" Qi Zhongshan looked through them, and found that they were all his usual clothes, which should be kept in his home.

"I asked your mother for it," Ling Yifeng coughed a few more times, "Auntie gave me the key, and I asked my brother to borrow his driver to pick him up, probably because he is familiar with the road conditions, and it's pretty fast."

"It's hard for you." Qi Zhongshan was silent for a long time, and only said this.

"You underestimate me." Ling Yifeng sniffed, his eyes slightly reddened, "Yes, I'm angry, I don't think you should make such an important decision behind my back, but I'm not the kind I want you to follow my people, since you have already made up your mind, don't I still want to follow you?"

Qi Zhongshan's heart softened suddenly.

He didn't expect Ling Yifeng to have a positive exchange with Xu Li for him, nor did he expect Ling Yifeng to beg for him, especially Xie Hao.

"Did you wait for me to coax you just now?" Qi Zhongshan hugged Ling Yifeng and asked in his ear.

"Is it necessary to speak so straightly?" Ling Yifeng tried to maintain the relaxed tone just now, but his body trembled involuntarily.

He put his warm eyes on Qi Zhongshan's shoulder.

"I'm afraid you're ignoring me," he said, "you don't know how scared I am when you stop looking for me. As soon as I get scared, I obediently come to you. Am I in debt? .”

"A little bit." Qi Zhongshan hesitated for a long time, and finally told the truth.

"Then I'm here to find you." Ling Yifeng said, "Do you still want me?"

"Are you going to force me to hug and cry with you here?" Qi Zhongshan smiled, "Hey, it makes me really uncomfortable."

"Do you think we will be seen by others?" Ling Yifeng asked him, his voice seemed to be laughing, "Will anyone find their eyes hot?"

"If you don't have a good class during class time, you will be punished with hot eyes," Qi Zhongshan said, "Thinking about how much money we both make, the first couple in the school is probably the only one who dares to hug each other without any scruples even under the flag-raising stage. Hugging couples. Anyway, I have seen it on the bulletin board at the school gate, and it’s okay to watch the live version.”

He felt the warmth on his shoulders gradually turning into damp heat.

The man is crying.

Ling Yifeng let go of Qi Zhongshan until the bell rang for the end of get out of class, went to the bathroom with him to take a shower, and went to the school infirmary to get cold medicine. This time, he sat by the bed and watched Qi Zhongshan fall asleep.

Qi Zhongshan's appearance belonged to the chiseled one, which was so three-dimensional that Ling Yifeng stared at him for a long time before realizing that he had lost weight.

It can be seen from the Adam's apple that it is not just a little thinner, but the kind of emaciation that makes people feel distressed.

How tired he is.

In fact, I am also tired.

Coveting his goodness, but forgetting that he has no capital to bear, and forcibly transforming himself to follow in his footsteps.

Who is not tired?

But he really didn't want to let it go. He and Qi Zhongshan had worked so hard not to break up with him at the most critical moment.

He looked down at Qi Zhongshan for a while.

Forget it, I'm sick, let's talk about it later.

Perhaps someone wanted to vent the excessive pressure of high school study on this matter, or someone had been pushing the flames behind the scenes to make this matter a big deal. After many days after that, the matter still did not subside.

Some parents with fierce emotions are still protesting with the school, and the two of them will still be isolated wherever they go. Even Ye Yiming, who has always had a good relationship with Qi Zhongshan, has gradually lost communication with him for some reason. stand up.

And the communication between Ling Yifeng and Qi Zhongshan also began to decrease.

It wasn't because they deliberately avoided suspicion, but because the two of them gradually didn't know what to talk about apart from studying.

People in love talk about their feelings as long as they open their mouths, and the relationship between the two of them has already gone wrong.

Under the huge pressure of study, people's hearts are restless. It is not enough for everyone to deal with their own mentality, and there is no energy to negotiate feelings.

If you don't want to quarrel every day like Qi Ming and Ling Yichen did back then, you can only maintain the superficial harmony with silence.

The two went to and from school together in silence every day, ate together in silence, tore off the note pasted on the door of the cafeteria asking them to get out of the cafeteria and not be disgusting, threw it into the trash can, and then went back to the school district room to cook water noodles.

Ling Yifeng's birthday passed quickly and smoothly, and Qi Zhongshan's previous jokes did not come true.

until the winter vacation.

Ling Yifeng was leaving.

He invited Qi Zhongshan to the school district room.

Since the original landlord wanted to quit the lease after learning about this incident, Ling Yichen finally had to buy the real estate with money, and almost all the nearby ones were moved out, and the whole house was so quiet Fear.

"Now that I'm gone, I don't know when I'll be back." Ling Yifeng and Qi Zhongshan lay side by side on the bed, covering the quilt peacefully and just chatting, "It's as short as half a year, or as long as... I don't know."

"Are your grades good enough to get into the best medical schools?" Ling Yifeng asked softly, "Have you decided which one to go to?"

"No," Qi Zhongshan said, "I will go with you wherever you want."

"I don't care much," Ling Yifeng said with a sigh, "If I had known that your grades would be so good later on, so good that I could only be in the same city as you but not in the same school... Maybe I would really study art, maybe I could have With such a chance, I’m really not the type to study. At worst, I will pay back the money to Wei Yan in the future, and I won’t feel that I owe my brother..."

"Who will pay back the money to?" Qi Zhongshan was taken aback.

"Wei Yan," Ling Yifeng turned his head to look at him, only to realize that he didn't tell him about it in order to avoid misunderstanding, "ah, that's..."

"Duan Yu's ex-boyfriend?" Qi Zhongshan said, "The one you like Qi Ming?"

"Well," Ling Yifeng said, "He originally wanted to sponsor me to study art, but I didn't agree."

"Why does he want to help you?" Qi Zhongshan sat up from the bed all of a sudden, turned around, and looked down at him.

"Is it because I don't wear enough clothes because I was raped?" Ling Yifeng asked back.

"I didn't mean that," Qi Zhongshan paused and denied, "You're thinking too much. I just want to know, why didn't you tell me then?"

"I didn't expect you to be so excited?" Ling Yifeng glanced at him, "Because I have ghosts in my heart, do you want to hear me say this?"

In fact, this matter can be big or small. Normally, Ling Yifeng might have dismissed it with "Are you jealous?", but this time, he couldn't get rid of this sentence, so the conversation went out of control from the very beginning.

"Yifeng, don't make noise, don't make noise," Qi Zhongshan pressed his palm on the index finger of the other hand, and made a "stop" gesture, "I have a headache."

There was a moment of silence between the two.

"Have you already felt a headache for me?"

"Do you still have to be awkward with me?"

Open your mouth at the same time.

"Qi Chongshan," Ling Yifeng said after another silence, "Aren't you tired?"

"What do you want to say?" Qi Zhongshan asked in a low voice.

"Aren't you tired?" Ling Yifeng raised his voice.

Not tired?

How could you not be tired.

Who would think that it would not be tiring to work hard to maintain the relationship between the two in an environment where everyone accuses everyone of betraying relatives.

Qi Zhongshan took several deep breaths, stabilized his voice, and then said in a hoarse voice: "I know you have been under a lot of pressure recently, and everyone has been feeling very uncomfortable recently..."

"I don't need you to be a reasonable guest!" Ling Yifeng grabbed his collar and pushed him against the wall, "What I'm asking is, Qi Zhongshan, are you tired!"

Qi Zhongshan frowned and looked at him for a while, stretched out his hands to pinch both sides of his fist, originally wanting to release the strength from his hands, but in the end Qi Zhongshan didn't dare to use any more force, and Ling Yifeng still carried the pain and didn't let go.

"I don't like the way you seem to be trying to take care of me at first glance. You will only put more pressure on me," Ling Yifeng continued, "I want to hear the truth. Qi Zhongshan, are you tired?"

"Do you want to see me get angry!" Qi Zhongshan finally couldn't help it, "Yeah, I'm tired, what's wrong? I like you, I don't like you when I'm tired? Aren't you tired?"

"Since they are all so tired, why do they have to be tied together!"

When Ling Yifeng blurted out these words, he was stunned.

He remembered that he once asked Qi Ming the exact opposite.

Since we like each other, why can't we be together.

Although Qi Ming patiently explained a lot to him at the time, it was not until this moment that he understood why Qi Ming and Ling Yichen were so determined to break up.

It’s a trivial matter to suffer and suffer. What’s terrible is seeing the other party as tired as yourself, or even more tired than yourself. When the combination of distress and fear of being left behind by the other party exceeds a certain threshold, someone will definitely mention it first. separate.

Is this a break up?

"Without me, you can live more easily," Ling Yifeng gritted his teeth, and finally continued without hesitation, "To be honest, you have lived smoothly in the past 18 years, and you only planted on me Somersault, have you ever thought that I have been dragging you down and playing a bad role in your life..."

"No," Qi Zhongshan finally said, "I like you very much. You are the only person I have liked since I grew up. As long as I see words like 'high school', 'youth', 'future' and 'ideal', except You and I can't think of anything else. Can you stop always underestimating my feelings for you?"

"I never underestimated your feelings for me, I just think you overestimated my image."

"I seem to have said a long time ago that I have the final say on whether it's worth it or not." Qi Zhongshan sighed a long time, "Are we going to dig up all the topics that we have quarreled about before?"

"Because I really don't understand what you are insisting on!" Ling Yifeng let go of his hand and pushed him away, "I didn't know from the beginning! You say you are such a good person! Who doesn't like it? , and you are so kind to me, whoever you replace will like you! What about me? What other merits do I have besides making your life suffer from Waterloo? Why do you have to hold on to the stains in your life?"

"If you think like this, how is it different from those who think that homosexuality is a shame!" Qi Zhongshan gasped, trying to suppress his volume, "Yes, I am gay, but I am not ashamed of it! And you Being together is not my fault! I work hard, I am good, I have a happy family, which makes me feel grateful and content; I am gay, I met you, and this is also a great part of my life, This also makes me feel very lucky and satisfied! Why do you deny homosexuality like those who take prejudice as truth, and even deny yourself!"

"I really hate it when people tell me that such a good person likes men, and he still likes such a person." Qi Zhongshan paused for a while before opening his mouth again, "I also hesitated and hesitated at the beginning. However, when I first realized that I had feelings for you, I was also very confused, but after I realized it, I felt that it was nothing. !"

"You didn't realize the point of what I said at all!" Ling Yifeng yelled directly, "I don't think it's wrong for me to like men! I was raised by homosexuality since I was a child, and I have never denied myself! I just I think if you didn't fall in love with someone like me at this time, you could live a little easier!"

"The key is that I am!" Qi Zhongshan finally couldn't control his voice, and confronted him, "I already am! If I say Ling Yifeng, you have never met me if you are not gay. How do you feel!"

If Qi Zhongshan had never appeared, it would be impossible for him to feel the pain in his heart because of gain and loss.

"If I knew, one day we would break up," Ling Yifeng's voice trembled, "I would wish you never showed up."

The thing he fears the most in his life is that someone who is kind to him puts away his kindness and walks away.

But for 18 years, he has experienced similar things almost every few years.

Qi Zhongshan closed his eyes.

He knew very well that at the last juncture of leaving, Ling Yifeng was uneasy and needed him to coax him.

But he couldn't be coaxed.

With Ling Yifeng beside him, he could comfort him and reach out to hug him, but if Ling Yifeng left, he would have more energy than he wanted.

He began to reflect on the earliest stage of love.

Every time, every thing, he did it very hard, worked very hard to complete it, and after he had thoroughly reflected on it, he still didn't find out where he was wrong.

He has nothing more to say and do.

At the end of the road, Guizhou donkeys are poor.

Maybe he was wrong in the first place.

Maybe what Ling Yifeng said was right at first.Ling Yifeng had warned him from the very beginning when he wanted to get closer. The two of them were not from the same world. He was the one who forced himself into his world, chasing after things that should not belong to him. Complaining that the baby is a baby, but it is too difficult to take care of.

He made one last excuse for his boyfriend in his heart.

At that moment, Qi Zhongshan felt that the extremely tight rubber band in his mind had finally snapped.

are not you tired.

Tired, my fault.

"Okay," Qi Zhongshan took a deep breath and said, "Then I'll leave now."

Ling Yifeng looked at him in shock, and for a moment suspected that there was something wrong with his ears.

He knew that if there was no fight today, it would definitely not end. Maybe the two would fight again, or like Ling Yichen and Qi Ming did in the past, they would fight coldly while traveling in different places, but he didn't expect Qi Zhongshan to tell him this .

His tone was calm and firm.

"You fucking leave as soon as you say?" Ling Yifeng grabbed his collar again, short of breath, "The buses stop at the fucking designated place, what do you think I am here? Free parking lot!"

Qi Zhongshan didn't make a sound.

Intuition told Ling Yifeng that Qi Zhongshan was serious this time.

The ridiculous thing is that he still finds it unbelievable that it has reached this point.

Probably really spoiled by this person.

"Okay, okay, get out." Ling Yifeng was silent for a long time, let go of Qi Zhongshan, and suddenly punched him, hitting the wall behind him hard, panting heavily, "right now."

That's okay, this way, I can walk away easily, without worries when I come and go.

"You told me before that your boyfriend will always be your boyfriend, I believed it," Ling Yifeng lowered his head, his voice trembling, "I really fucking hate you now."

"I hope you don't meet another liar." Qi Zhongshan said calmly, "I'm sorry."

Ling Yifeng has never felt such pain in his hand, a slight movement is like a broken bone inserted|inserted into the muscle, sticky blood gushes out from between his fingers, and Qi Zhongshan just turned his head to look at him , without saying a word, got up and left.

Ling Yifeng couldn't stop crying when he heard the sound of closing the door.

Fuck, be an idiot.

Look at that man, he doesn't even look back.

----

Qi Zhongshan walked a long way, and only realized that he was wearing the wrong school uniform when he heard the text message notification tone from the mobile phone in his pocket.

Ling Yifeng still has two hours to go, so it should be too late to go back and give it to him now.

Just as Qi Zhongshan was thinking this way, his fingers accidentally rested on the fingerprint unlocking.

The screen saver was turned on because the fingerprints were registered with each other.

Ling Yifeng's screensaver has always been the "boy hugging a cat" he drew, with a stronger sense of illustration. Most people may not guess that it is Qi Zhongshan, and even if they guess it, they can fool it.Qi Chongshan always thought that Ling Yifeng's mobile phone desktop was his own photo, but today he took a closer look and found that it was a painting.

The strokes are incredibly delicate.

It is no exaggeration to say that almost every stroke can make people see overflowing likes.

He thought of what Ling Yifeng had just asked him, and suddenly felt extremely uncomfortable.

How can he be such an asshole.

Soon another text message came in, this time it was an address.

One more sentence.

You are only allowed to come alone, if you are worried, just call your boyfriend over for a one-on-two.

Qi Zhongshan flipped through the previous article subconsciously, and saw this sentence.

- Your mother's death is related to Xie Fang

Xie Fang is Ling Haoran's mother, the righting third son, Qi Chongshan heard from Ling Yifeng.

Will this be a set?

Qi Chongshan knew that according to Ling Yifeng's personality, even if it was a trick, he would definitely go, and he would never call himself.

Qi Zhongshan hesitated for a while, then changed direction.

If there is no trap, he will act as a boyfriend for the last time and tell Ling Yifeng the matter according to the request on the text message.

If there is a trap, no matter whether Ling Yifeng is his boyfriend or not, he will take it down.

He originally planned to send a message to Ye Yiming to sound the alarm in advance, but in the end he chose to give up because of Ye Yiming's unexpected indifference after that day.

It should be all right, he thought.

----

It was a long time after Ling Yifeng left that he found out that something happened to Qi Chongshan that day.

His right leg had a fractured tibia, multiple soft tissue contusions all over his body, and two stab wounds. In other words, he was stabbed twice after being surrounded and beaten.

He knew it was because Ling Haoran entered the juvenile detention center, and he didn't know whether the crime was intentional injury or attempted murder.

They said that Ling Haoran had brought a knife, and they made up an excuse to lure Ling Yifeng to a blind spot for monitoring.

He was the one Ling Haoran wanted to kill that day.

Ling Haoran was not reconciled to having to compare himself with another person from birth, and to be taught by another person as a template. After finally having a background that seemed to be better than that person, it was finally proved that they were just the same person.He wanted to prove to people all over the world that this person was ten thousand times more disgusting and inferior than himself, but in the end he found that he seemed to be calm, doing whatever he wanted, his grades improved steadily, and he didn't even break up.

In the sound of his mother's crying, his reason finally collapsed.

He's going to destroy this man.

Don't trickle down.But one hit must hit.

He wanted to kill Ling Yifeng.

Even if you destroy yourself, you will not hesitate.

He didn't expect that only Qi Zhongshan came.

What he didn't even expect was that after Qi Zhongshan felt his obvious killing intent, he made an astonishing decision in a very short period of time.

He decided not to run away.

If he escapes this time, Ling Haoran will still point the finger at Ling Yifeng again, and will pester him endlessly no matter what.

Now Ling Haoran is no longer Ling Zhengxuan's son, Qi Chongshan knows it.

No one can atone for him.

He wanted to use a small price in exchange for Ling Haoran's personal freedom.

After Ling Yifeng and Ling Yichen repeatedly confirmed the authenticity of this incident, he stared blankly at the hand that had just removed the thread.

If there is a choice, Qi Zhongshan should also hope that he has not appeared.

The author has something to say: Thank you, Big Baby, for the hand grenade x 1!I love you bo chi!

Finally finished the orz explosion liver!I saved a little ending plot to write tomorrow, the little angels who are super sleepy and forget the previous plot can go to Chapter 1, pack up and get ready to start reuniting tomorrow!

So did you find out, student Zhongshan is a professional flag...