look back and see him

Chapter 30

The hot topic on Weibo, "Lu Xiaoman's Gay Mistress" topped the list for the third day in a row, and different voices began to break the news.

First, there was news about Lu Xiaoman seeing a psychiatrist. Then, the staff of "Late Night Convenience Store" broke the news that Lu Xiaoman was insane when he starred in this movie, and he was too involved in the movie to get out of the movie.

In "Late Night Convenience Store", the role played by Lu Xiaoman is a psychopath because he can't get the girl he loves. He directly fantasizes that the other party is his girlfriend, and kills the man who pursues the girl and the man who bullied the girl. the murderer.Some staff members said that Lu Xiaoman was always in a trance on the set, and often couldn't tell whether he was Lu Xiaoman or the protagonist Chen Yu in the film.Especially one day, he suddenly and sweetly admitted that he was currently dating a lover, and he went back early that day to celebrate her birthday, but later, a colleague saw him dining alone in the hotel, and there was an unrecognized meal across the table. Human food.It happened to be Yan Yan's birthday that day, and Yan Yan spent the whole night with her colleagues in the company.

Next, more and more revelations emerged.A staff member who participated in Yan Yan's MV before said that Lu Xiaoman always looked at Yan Yan when no one was paying attention.Some media reporters also claimed that Lu Xiaoman had confessed that he had a crush on someone at that time, but he would never confess.

At this moment, the first version of the trailer of "Late Night Convenience Store" came out.In the short 2-minute trailer, Lu Xiaoman vividly expresses the desperate and morbid state of a person who is desperate for the one he loves deeply with a few very real eyes.Because of the "Little Three Disturbance", this trailer quickly became popular on the Internet, and almost everyone who watched the trailer was shocked by Lu Xiaoman's expression that really didn't look like a normal person.

Then, someone began to find out the secret photos of Yan Yan and Lu Xiaoman.In those photos, Yan Yan's face can be seen in several photos, and the people in two photos have their eyes closed, as if they were asleep.And when Lu Xiaoman leaned over to kiss, Yan Yan's face was blocked, and he couldn't tell whether his eyes were open or closed, only his movements were the same as those two pictures of him sleeping.At the beginning, someone analyzed that Yan Yan was asleep when Lu Xiaoman kissed Yan Yan, that's why he didn't push Lu Xiaoman away.In the photo of the two of them looking at each other afterwards, Yan Yan's complexion was not good, she didn't look happy having an affair with someone, on the contrary, she was probably a little scared because she noticed Lu Xiaoman's weird behavior.

So far, many fans of Yan Yan jumped out to avenge their idols, portraying Yan Yan as a good friend with loyalty, and did not say a word of defense when Lu Xiaoman put him in an embarrassing situation.In addition, more people focused on Lu Xiaoman's mental problems.After all, for ordinary people, since Yan Yan didn't have a pregnant girlfriend because of the male mistress cheating on her, even though it's pretty scumbag not to marry a pregnant girlfriend, but there are too many scumbags in the entertainment industry, and it's still a scumbag to abandon their wretched wives when they become popular With all the success, Yan Yan's behavior doesn't deserve too much attention.On the contrary, the case of a mentally ill person sounds much more interesting.

After Yan Yan gradually returned to normal life and even work, Lu Xiaoman had to hide in the hotel to avoid the limelight.

To be honest, this situation is better than what Lu Xiaoman imagined. Perhaps Ding Yu’s past relationship, coupled with the public’s sympathy for patients, may still have a lot of people on the Internet who take pleasure in others’ misfortune, but there are not many voices who really abuse a patient. On the contrary, there are many netizens who are sympathetic to Lu Xiaoman, who are expected by Lu Xiaoman, but somewhat beyond his expectation.Some people even jumped out to blame that Internet violence made Ding Yu disappear and made him sick, and then Lu Xiaoman, who was forced to become sick, was bombarded by the public again. The sick person did not do anything that can be called hurtful, but those keyboards Heroes are the real villains.

——Looking at these remarks, Lu Xiaoman was even more uncertain who the villain was.Jin Cen is right, he is the kind of person who will not give a second chance, but in any case, he can spit on the Internet and public opinion, but he should not manipulate and use it that way.

Lu Xiaoman locked himself in the hotel, thinking that maybe everything was over, including the relationship between him and Yan Yan who carried out the plan without his knowledge.Then, he saw Yan Yan's balcony from the room next to him turned over.

"Liu Cheng thought we were filming a spy movie, why didn't he agree with me coming in directly through the door, as if someone would secretly film it." The visitor who descended from the sky pursed his mouth as if nothing had happened and said his opening remarks.

Lu Xiaoman stared blankly at the other party for a long time, not sure if it was a hallucination.

"Aren't you angry?" Finally, he asked.

Yan Yan suddenly realized as if being reminded: "I forgot. Of course I was very angry. But I was so happy to see you that I forgot."

For some reason, Yan Yan is always inexplicably good at making Lu Xiaoman laugh.

Yan Yan approached Lu Xiaoman slowly, and his tone was a little lower and serious: "But I'm really angry. You can slander anyone in this world, and it's okay to slander me, but you can't slander yourself like that. Why should you Do that? Do you know how angry I am with myself? Because I can't protect you, you have to face the current situation."

Never before, even when innocent was framed and abused three years ago, Lu Xiaoman had never felt so wronged like this moment.The peace of mind that you have the right to be wronged because you know someone has arms around you.

"When I did that, what was the difference between what Jinling did to me three years ago..." He subconsciously blurted out.

Soon, Yan Yan grabbed his shoulders and shook his head to show him: "Of course it's completely different! Your intentions are completely different! I know that you did that to protect Ding Yijing's reputation, and you even Yijing positions herself as a third party, although you have fooled the netizens, but which one of the netizens will not be fooled one day? It is not your responsibility that the netizens have no judgment!"

Lu Xiaoman was once again amused by Yan Yan's righteous last sentence. "But it's my responsibility not to be too smart by being a loner."

"It doesn't matter if you are too smart, someone as stupid as me will help you neutralize it." Yan Yan said with a smile.

Lu Xiaoman finally approached.He rested his forehead on the other's shoulder, enjoying the relief of not having to stand there with his back straight.

"When Ding Yijing gets married, shall we go abroad to get married?"

Yan Yan paused unexpectedly, then looked at Lu Xiaoman with sparkling eyes, and said with a smile, "Are you proposing to me?"

"Yeah, I don't have any flowers or rings, see if you can just make do with it?"

"I don't have flowers either, but I have a ring." Yan Yan suddenly took out a small red velvet box from his pocket.

Lu Xiaoman stared at the flannel box for a long time: "Where did this come from?"

"Of course I bought it. I have a passport and a certificate." Yan Yan explained seriously.

Lu Xiaoman blinked his eyes and pondered for a while: "What if I can't wear it?"

"Impossible! I measured it with a thread while you were sleeping."

"...Why are you doing this while I'm sleeping? Can't you do something serious?"

People who claim to be stupid actually understand the subtext: "So let's 'do' business now?"

Lu Xiaoman finally smiled.The most satisfying and sincere smile that I endured for a long time. "First, put the ring on for me."

Second, they draw the curtains and turn off the lights...

After the "delusional mistress" incident, perhaps threatened by Lu Xiaoman's suggestion that he might reveal that "the Ding family has a genetic problem with mental illness", the Ding family did not make any further moves.After a period of turmoil, Yan Yan resumed all her work.As for Lu Xiaoman, he really planned to fade out of the showbiz. After all, there was no good chance to find him, and he also hoped that the public would forget his existence as soon as possible.Unexpectedly, a movie actually found Lu Xiaoman as the director.This is a small film production company that has nothing to do with Jinling.The script seems to be a very ordinary story about the daily life of the otaku. However, the plot is reversed later, because the otaku is a mental patient, so the truth of the daily life before is completely different, such as the otaku himself. The plot of slaughtering a live fish, in the real world, an otaku may have killed a living person.Therefore, the second half restores the so-called "daily life" and substitutes the whole plot into the real horror suspense.As far as the script is concerned, this is the niche taste that Lu Xiaoman has always preferred.For this reason, Lu Xiaoman has considered giving guidance.However, he knew that the film company was only interested in his "not a normal person" selling point, and deliberately found such a sensitive subject to raise the topic.

At the same time, if he directs this film, in order to match the illusion created before, he must add dark and morbid elements that are not his own style to the director's technique.For some reason, Lu Xiaoman inexplicably remembered what Jin Cen had said, hoping to see a movie in which director Lu Xiaoman showed his ideas.It is impossible for Lu Xiaoman to actually make a movie in order to realize Jin Cen's wish, but no matter what, he can't let himself make a movie that is just to match the selling point without his own ideas.

In the end, Lu Xiaoman rejected the script and officially quit the showbiz again.He guessed he wouldn't be coming back after this time, because, at last, he had somehow regained some of the respect he once had for movies.