You have a bamboo horse waiting to be checked

Chapter 121

Qi Zhongshan obediently drank the ginger soup, and took another bowl from the side.

Inside is a pile of tomato stewed eggs, bright in color, golden egg liquid condensed into shape, wrapped in sweet and juicy tomatoes, and then stretching down the chopsticks, you can fish out the smooth and firm noodles, and you will be full Soup, even for those on the verge of a cold, can activate nearly defunct taste buds.

When Ling Yifeng didn't know what to do, he always made the scrambled eggs with tomatoes that Qi Zhongshan ordered for the first time.Qi Chongshan also ate willingly. After all, Ling Yifeng's cooking skills were really good. He was used to eating Ling Yifeng's cooking during summer vacation, and eating Xu Li's cooking again when he went back, felt a little uncomfortable for a short time.

But now he can't eat anymore.

"Aren't you angry?" Qi Chongshan asked softly, stirring the noodles with chopsticks.

Ling Yifeng didn't make a sound.

Qi Zhongshan didn't ask any more questions, and started eating bite by mouthful.

"I'm going to take a shower." Ling Yifeng left behind a sentence, turned and went into the bathroom.

The water from the shower was splashing on the wall, and Ling Yifeng supported the wall with both hands, allowing the water to pour down from the top of his head.

The thing that worried him most still happened.

Ling Yifeng didn't know how he should react.It’s true that I’m unhappy, and it’s true that I’m surprised, but anger doesn’t count, and I’m in a state where I can’t get so angry that I lose my mind and start arguing with Qi Zhongshan, and I’m really irritable and want to ask him why he made his own decisions , can't go up and down, it's very uncomfortable to hang.

He didn't really want to quarrel with Qi Zhongshan.

He and Qi Zhongshan had never blushed seriously, and for Ling Yifeng, arguing with someone close to him was something that would scare him.

Whether it was Yi Xiaoqin and Ling Zhengxuan when he was a child, or Qi Ming and Ling Yichen later, it was difficult for him to accept quarrels mixed with intimacy.

To be honest, Qi Zhongshan is good-tempered enough, he can make troubles and be jealous, no matter how tired and busy he is studying, he is willing to bear his psychological pressure, if this is put in a romance novel, he will be a warm man with a spare tire for thousands of years The role of the second male.

This is his first and only possible self-assessment. Compared with Ling Yifeng's previous behavior of leaving as soon as he wanted and the occasional indirect convulsions plus tossing his boyfriend, it is definitely nothing.

Even if he compares his heart with his heart, he can't do anything to directly quarrel.

When Ling Yifeng came out of the wash, he saw Qi Zhongshan sitting at the desk sorting out the collection of wrong questions for him, and suddenly his heart softened.

"Don't you want to tell me?" Ling Yifeng sighed, sitting on the edge of the bed and wiping his hair with a towel, "Tell me."

"During dinner today, Chen Hao came to pick things up. I couldn't hold back my anger. That's it." Qi Zhongshan turned around and looked at him, "Maybe I really don't like having a 'weak spot' being pinched by others all the time." Come on. I don't like being manipulated."

"But I don't like the pressure of public opinion." Ling Yifeng said softly, "I don't like the feeling of being judged. In the previous school, many people looked down on me and even targeted me. They threw my schoolbag into the trash Bucket, put me in the bathroom stall and won't let me out, they call me a gutter rat, call me bastard, bastard, call me dirty... I don't want to go through it again. I'm so Say, can you understand?"

"I can." Qi Zhongshan suddenly felt distressed, "But if I am here, I can promise you that such a thing will never happen, okay?"

"It's impossible for me to let these things happen now," Ling Yifeng said, "I just don't like that feeling very much, more than others, just like I'm afraid of the dark, and I don't have a second mother in front of me Die again, but I'm still afraid, because the night will remind me of that, do you understand now?"

"I've been trying my best to keep you from being afraid," Qi Zhongshan said after a moment of silence. "This kind of effort is a bit too much, but I won't ask you for it. I just don't want you to be afraid forever."

"People like my brother never told me to overcome them," Ling Yifeng said, "I don't think it's a bad thing for people to have weaknesses. Why do they have to overcome them?"

"When you are by my side, I can accompany you. When you are not by my side, I will worry. I am selfish," Qi Zhongshan said. Live as you want."

"Both are dancing in shackles, what's the difference." Ling Yifeng sighed, and went back to the original topic, "You think you're out of the closet, you're frank, isn't that a weakness?"

"I don't think homosexuality is my shortcoming or weakness." Qi Zhongshan said, "I'm even glad that I am, so I can meet you."

"I think so." Ling Yifeng said, "It was a blessing in disguise when I met you. And how do you know, if you weren't, would you..."

"Will you meet someone better?" Qi Zhongshan took a deep breath, and couldn't help it, "You have told me this sentence many times, and every time I answer it is no, today I I kind of want to ask you, if you are not, do you think you will meet someone better than me? Will you like other people?"

After a while.

Ling Yifeng said slowly: "If I say, I'm not sure, will you be angry?"

Qi Zhongshan stared at him: "Yes."

"But the fact is like this." Ling Yifeng said, "No one knows whether it would be better without someone."

"But the fact is that I'm trying my best to do the best for you." Qi Zhongshan said, "I don't want anyone to be better than me."

"So this is the standard answer, Ling Yifeng," Qi Zhongshan wanted to laugh, but he couldn't help it, "You asked me so many times, is this the answer you want?"

"You are a very youthful person, Qi Zhongshan." Ling Yifeng also changed his address, "Many things are too idealistic."

"Including how well I treat you," Qi Zhongshan asked, "including whether we are together."

"I'm not sure." Ling Yifeng replied again.

"Why are you not sure." Qi Zhongshan asked in a hoarse voice, "Why didn't you believe that the two of us could go through from the very beginning. Why did we both get stuck in the first hurdle of coming out of the closet?"

are not you tired.

How do you coax him.

"I never said I would not come out of the closet, and I despised my brother's urge to come out of the closet before. I just don't think it should be now." Ling Yifeng tried to hold his breath, and said, "Why do you have to be in the third year of high school?" Coming out of the closet at this moment? Why do you want to make it difficult for your parents at this time?"

"If others didn't come to my door, I wouldn't take the initiative to come out, I would listen to you," Qi Zhongshan said, "And for me, this matter is not difficult to carry, you will go back there soon ..."

"Do you think I will leave you here alone at this time!" Ling Yifeng couldn't control his voice, "Even if I wanted to leave, I can't lift my feet now! And you think I will leave Don't they think we are a couple!"

"You've already left. To you, they may be passers-by who you will never meet again in this life. What else do you care about?" Qi Zhongshan asked back.

"I just want to care! I'm just unhappy, what's the matter!" Ling Yifeng threw the towel on the table, "Aren't you the one who regretted it after listening to me! Why are you angry at me!"

Isn't it you who made the promise and believed that I would take care of everything?

Aren't you the one who promised me to go on?

Qi Zhongshan closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths.

"Sorry," he said, "I was wrong."

He remembered that he had promised Ling Yifeng many things, some of which had become accustomed to nature, while others were still getting used to.

There are so many natural couples in the world, and more of them see each other right, and they can still get along with each other, and then they start a long or short run-in with each other.

To put it bluntly, it is unbalanced in my heart.

It started with Ling Yifeng's "I'm not sure".

He never imagined that there would be someone he liked more than Ling Yifeng in the world, and he never thought that there would be someone more suitable for him, but for the first time he realized that maybe in Ling Yifeng's heart, the kind of "heterogeneous" Anxiety is greater than liking for him.

Ling Yifeng might prefer to be an ordinary "normal person" rather than being with him.

"I'm going to bed first." Ling Yifeng was silent for a moment, without responding, and went directly into the bed, "You also go to bed early, and be careful of the cold getting worse."

That night, Qi Zhongshan turned off the lights and sat at the table until the sky turned pale, then he turned his head and glanced at Ling Yifeng.

Ling Yifeng was awake.

He glanced at Qi Zhongshan's watch, greeted him to go to class, and didn't talk much about their sleepless night.

The two walked side by side on the way to school. Qi Zhongshan bought breakfast and shared it with Ling Yifeng. Ling Yifeng took it and ate it silently, without making a sound all the way.

The school's bulletin board is on the right side of the gate, and the students on duty are no longer standing at the gate, and surrounded by a large group of people, making a lot of noise.

"Two from class one are here!"

I don't know who yelled in the crowd, and everyone's eyes were like sharp swords, and they shot straight at the two of them.

Ling Yifeng instantly realized what this familiar scene represented.

With the previous events as a foreshadowing, he was no longer surprised by the current scene.

But the feeling of being the target of public criticism still made him a little dizzy.

Or rather, disgusting.

Ling Yifeng was just about to step to the bulletin board, but found that Qi Zhongshan walked over before him, peeled off the photos and printing paper pasted on it, crumpled it up expressionlessly, tore it up, and threw it into the trash can .

This is angry.

There is also a heavy wake-up smell mixed in-even though last night can't be regarded as sleep at all.

The crowd did not know who took the lead in blowing the whistle, and then there was a burst of booing.

Qi Chongshan glanced back quickly, and caught Chen Hao's familiar figure at the source of the sound at a glance. The anger that had been accumulated for a long time burst out unavoidably under Chen Hao's unreasonable provocation again. .

He finally couldn't hold back the anger in his heart, rushed over in three steps in two steps, and punched Chen Hao's face firmly and firmly.

The author has something to say: Thanks to the little angel [Gentlemen's friendship is as light as water] for the nutrient solution × 10~

Hey, classmate Zhongshan’s mentality has collapsed. It’s not far from breaking up (lay flat). I don’t know how many chapters are left. The main reason is that I am good at poisonous milk. In other words, the accuracy of prediction is very low...

Today, the author who wrote the tomato and egg combination said so.