look back and see him

Chapter 5

Lu Xiaoman began to distance himself from Yan Yan, and the process was calm.Yan Yan didn't notice that these two days were mostly his scenes, he was busy filming, and when he returned to the inn late at night, he was too embarrassed to sleep in Lu Xiaoman's bed.Lu Xiaoman optimistically estimates that in just one or two months, the crew will leave soon, and no matter what delusions Yan Yan has for a while, the matter will pass soon.

He didn't expect that there would be a small accident in this plan.

That night, Yan Yan woke up Lu Xiaoman who was already asleep by the bedside.

"I'm sorry I woke you up." Yan Yan apologized earnestly before Lu Xiaoman understood the situation.

Lu Xiaoman looked at the other party sleepily: "You woke me up just to say sorry?"

"To be precise, I woke you up to hear you say I'm sorry." Yan Yan's expression was serious, he rarely spoke to Lu Xiaoman with this attitude, not even when he was initially angry that Lu Xiaoman didn't know his name.

Lu Xiaoman tried his best to wake up from the chaos: "Am I dreaming? How can I be sorry for you?"

Yan Yan looked at Lu Xiaoman with an unpredictable expression: "Just now I told Yan Ya that she was researching what birthday gift to give you."

Lu Xiaoman reacted immediately.

At first, when everyone in the inn celebrated Sang Yanya's birthday, Sang Yanya asked about Lu Xiaoman's birthday.Changing his name was for a new life, and Lu Xiaoman didn't really think that it was necessary for him to remain anonymous, so he told his real birthday.No one in this small mountain village knew Ding Yu, so of course it was impossible to recognize Ding Yu's birthday.Back then, Lu Xiaoman didn't think that doing this would cause any trouble. He didn't expect that one day he would meet a person named Yan Yan who was said to be a fan of Ding Yu.But now obviously, Lu Xiaoman's birthday made Yan Yan suspicious.

Lu Xiaoman made a decision after a little hesitation.Before, he didn't want to be recognized by his former colleagues mainly to avoid troubles. However, Yan Yan has the right to know his friend's real name.

"Recall, have you ever asked me if I am Ding Yu?"

Yan Yan was stunned for a while, unable to keep up with the progress, apparently never thought that Lu Xiaoman would admit it casually.

"Recall again, did I tell you that I am not Ding Yu?"

Yan Yan pondered hard, and he observed Lu Xiaoman uncertainly: "Do you think it's a bit unreasonable to say that?"

Lu Xiaoman didn't give the other party a chance to come back and fight back morally: "Then again, thanks to you saying you're Ding Yu's fan, you don't even recognize him."

"Can you blame me!" Yan Yan said with a grievance on his face, "You have changed too much! Brother Yu is always the sweetest and most confident when you smile! You smile like a painting. Your eyes It's also completely different, Brother Yu's eyes are very bright, but yours are deep and far away..."

Lu Xiaoman didn't want to hear it anymore, he knew he hadn't changed, but had lost a lot of things, he didn't want to hear Yan Yan's count of his lost things, before the other party continued, he interrupted suddenly: "So I'm not Ding Yu."

Yan Yan was completely stunned, unable to tell the truth.

Lest the other party come up with a twin situation, Lu Xiaoman explained: "As you said, I have completely changed, so I am no longer Ding Yu, I am Lu Xiaoman."

Yan Yan calmed down slowly, his eyes on Lu Xiaoman changed from thoughtful to guilty and worried. "How did you lose so much weight?"

Lu Xiaoman shrugged nonchalantly: "It's useless for you to ask me for advice on how to lose weight, this kind of thing depends on talent."

"But you weren't born so thin, you weren't thin before!" Yan Yan paused and asked carefully, "Is it because of what happened two years ago?"

Lu Xiaoman straightened up slightly as a warning: "So, do you think I'm the kind of weak person who doesn't have this kind of grace? Just because I was scolded a few times on the Internet and I can't stand my temperament change?"

Yan Yan shook his head solemnly: "It's not weakness. It's just too hard and easy to break. You can't tolerate a little bit of injustice, because what you want is the purest."

Lu Xiaoman listened dumbly to the other party's analysis of himself. He never thought that someone would understand him, let alone that this person once thought he would intentionally hurt others?

Probably seeing Lu Xiaoman's doubts, Yan Yan revealed a bit of embarrassing explanation: "I used to just admire your acting skills, but never thought about knowing the real you. It was after the video was released not long ago that I couldn't help but look it up online. A lot, and precisely because of this incident, many people have posted various deeds on the Internet to prove your character."

Lu Xiaoman never cared about how he was rehabilitated.This may be a bit deliberate.Because he is indeed not a person of grace, and the domestic entertainment industry has treated him wrongly, so he is no longer bothered to serve him. As someone who still knows how to surf the Internet, he has never cared about any entertainment industry matters.Including about himself, he didn't want to hear any sarcastic remarks from anyone.Therefore, this is the first time Lu Xiaoman heard the phrase "the video was leaked".The only video that can prove that he didn't push Shen Yizui back then was the surveillance video.In order to strengthen his determination to abandon the past, Lu Xiaoman personally deleted the part in his hand, so Jin Cen, who took away the master tape, was the only one who had the video.But why did he suddenly release this video?

"Who put the video on the Internet?" Lu Xiaoman couldn't help asking.

Yan Yan's face was full of disdain: "Actually, you should have guessed it. The entertainment industry is such a thing. You were hacked at the beginning because you jumped out of Jinling, and Jinling deliberately stepped on you to praise you. Shen Yizui was in three A month ago, when his contract expired and he left Jinling, Jinling repeated his old tricks by posting this video on the Internet to attack Shen Yizui."

This was beyond Lu Xiaoman's expectation.He thought that Jin Cen's attitude towards Shen Yizui was much better than his attitude, no matter what, it would last longer than his four years.What surprised him even more was that he didn't feel any gloating about this matter.

Whether it's Ding Yu or Lu Xiaoman, if they hate someone, they will never force themselves to forgive.Lu Xiaoman hates Shen Yizui, and he still hates it to this day, but it turns out that time can make people feel relieved a lot, his hatred is still there, but he no longer cares whether the person he hates is doing well or not.

"Shen Yizui, evil comes with evil!" Yan Yan clenched his fists and said sincerely, "Back then, Bara said disgustingly that you didn't do it on purpose, but you were just careless, and all kinds of hints were that you pushed him, but in the video you were separated from each other. So far away, he stepped on the ground by himself. Some netizens deliberately made video comparisons, and even took out the fake "clarification" of Shen Yizui to stitch together the surveillance video. Public indignation, now he has been hidden by the new brokerage company, really happy!"

Lu Xiaoman also felt that Shen Yizui deserved it, but as a victim of cyber violence, he had some sympathy for him.After thinking for a moment, he looked up at Yan Yan: "Did you say that you were drunk online?"

Yan Yan nodded happily: "My manager told me to restrain myself, but I still forwarded it!"

"Yan Yan, do you really regret reposting that Weibo post about me?"

It was probably Lu Xiaoman's rare serious expression that made Yan Yan recover from the excitement, and he nodded cautiously: "I regret it very much."

"You regret that you know it was wrong to do so, so why do you still do the same thing?"

Yan Yan was stunned for a moment before realizing: "That's different! You have been wronged! And Shen Yizui is the one who framed you!"

"I know, you feel like you're doing justice now, don't you?"

Yan Yan thought for a while and then nodded.

Lu Xiaoman continued: "But you didn't think so at the beginning?"

"But……"

"Maybe I forged that video, wouldn't you be wronged and drunk?"

"How is this possible!" Yan Yan reprimanded loudly, "Are you so random in arranging yourself!"

"I'm just giving you an example." Lu Xiaoman shrugged to the overly serious boy, "I want to say that there is no absolute truth in this world, let alone the Internet. Another example: maybe Shen Yizui's agency wanted to To deal with the job-hopping me, I instructed Shen Yizui to say that. Although Shen Yizui is also to blame, but if Shen Yizui is not the mastermind behind the scenes, it would not be fair to him to just scold him."

Yan Yan was dumbfounded.He was stunned for a while, and finally, he faced Lu Xiaoman with an aggrieved expression: "You are training me because of Shen Yizui who framed you?"

"Are you stupid?" Lu Xiaoman was so angry that he blurted out subconsciously, "What does it matter to me if I am unfair to Mr. Shen Yizui? At most, I just want to watch a good show. I said that to let you stop making mistakes. Lest you regret it."

Yan Yan was stunned for a while, and then raised a bright smile: "Yes, you are doing it for my own good."

Lu Xiaoman regretted his frank remarks without thinking, and what made him even more regretful was that he had made Yan Yan such an important friend without realizing it, so that when he was misunderstood by the other party, he felt so angry.

…Obviously, he has made up his mind that he will never let anyone have the ability to hurt him like his former fans, like...Jin Cen...

"Xiaoman, don't be angry." Faced with Lu Xiaoman whose expression was not much better, Yan Yan said flatteringly, "I'm just stupid. If a dog bites Lu Dongbin, I don't know a good heart."

Lu Xiaoman returned to his senses and squinted at the young boy beside the bed: "What kind of dog are you? Can dogs speak human language?"

"Wang Wang-"

Yan Yan didn't hesitate at all, and immediately devoted herself to learning how to bark like a dog, which made Lu Xiaoman laugh: "Actually, you're pretty good as a cross talk actor, and you learn how to bark like a dog professionally."

"...you like cross talk so much?"

"Cross talk is in line with my aesthetics, and I like to laugh at others the most."

Yan Yan was silent for a moment, and then said: "But your smile is not as happy as before."

"You really have done too many TV shows, listen to this line." Lu Xiaoman lightly changed the topic, stretched out his hand and yawned, "Can I sleep? I have to make breakfast tomorrow morning."

"Hurry up and go to bed!" Yan Yan thoughtfully let go of the topic Lu Xiaoman avoided, and instinctively pulled the quilt for the latter, "Be careful of catching a cold, see you tomorrow."

This inexplicably warm scene made Lu Xiaoman lie down again in a daze. Yan Yan, who walked to the door and opened it, suddenly thought of something and turned around: "Starting tomorrow, I will carefully supervise your meals. I have tried my best to lose weight, and that's it. I absolutely can’t let you lose weight proudly by yourself again.”