look back and see him

Chapter 25

When he wanted to find Yan Yan, Lu Xiaoman was so anxious, as if wishing to see him a second sooner.However, when he was about to face the opponent, he hesitated.

In fact, Lu Xiaoman knew that he should have a good talk with Yan Yan.But he wasn't really ready for it.

Perhaps, when he sees Yan Yan, he will be controlled by emotions such as anger or grievance, and there is no way to solve the problem between the two of them.

...Or maybe, there is no way to solve the problems between them?

If Yan Yan wanted to give up simply because he cared about Jin Cen, Lu Xiaoman was no longer sure to convince the other party, and if it wasn't for this reason, Lu Xiaoman didn't know what he could do.

He really wasn't fit to fight for something.Originally, he lacked the ability in this area, and the only fight in this life caused him a disastrous defeat, which made him lack confidence and even courage without the ability.

What was supposed to be a three quarter hour walk ended up being more than an hour for Lu Xiaoman.He walked into the lobby with his head down, and when he pressed the elevator button, he hoped that the elevator would come slowly, so that he would have time to think about whether to go upstairs, and at this moment, the elevator arrived.After opening the door, Lu Xiaoman saw Yan Yan unexpectedly.

Yan Yan was obviously also defenseless, he stood there unexpectedly until the elevator door closed slowly until the time limit.Lu Xiaoman standing outside the door was not sure what he was going to do, Yan Yan instinctively blocked the elevator door with his hand.

Lu Xiaoman took a deep breath: "I want to talk to you."

Yan Yan was still holding on to the elevator door, looking so uncertain, but finally nodded silently.Lu Xiaoman walked into the elevator, and they went upstairs to Yan Yan's room together.

Yan Yan who walked into his room seemed a little embarrassed for no reason, he stood there by himself, thought for a while and said to Lu Xiaoman, "Sit down."

Lu Xiaoman looked at the other party: "Then what about you?"

Only then did Yan Yan react and walk to a pair of facing single sofas. "Let's sit down and talk." His plan should be to wait for Lu Xiaoman to speak first, but after he sat down, he finally couldn't bear to ask, "Have you eaten yet? You seem to have lost weight again."

"Why am I thin, don't you know the reason?" Lu Xiaoman didn't want to sound like a bitter woman, but he couldn't control his emotions.

Yan Yan, who was being questioned, looked as guilty as a child who had done something wrong. He spent a while trying to cheer himself up, "How does my cousin take care of others? Does he know how to cook porridge? I'll teach him when I have a chance!"

Lu Xiaoman felt more anger: "So you must think that your cousin has sex with me? Why does he take care of me?"

Yan Yan opened her mouth instinctively, but finally said nothing.That doesn't mean he can't refute, on the contrary, he seems to think he doesn't need to say anything at all.

The silent dialogue gave Lu Xiaoman finally a chance to reflect on his own rhetoric.

Yeah, why does Jin Cen take care of him?Regardless of the reason, isn't that exactly what Jin Cen was doing before?

Lu Xiaoman softened his tone and lowered his voice: "Is it because of Jin Cen's saving me before?"

Yan Yan was caught off guard by this sudden question. "You..." He looked at Lu Xiaoman in surprise, and soon understood. "You knew already?"

"What do I know?" Lu Xiaoman asked with a straight face.

Yan Yan didn't answer, he lowered his head and started another topic quietly: "At that time you were trapped in the cave, you can tell me it's a coincidence, my cousin and I both hurt our feet in that accident."

Lu Xiaoman couldn't understand the logic for a while: "So?"

"So," Yan Yan replied quickly, "the contrast is even more obvious. At that time, I was making trouble for the rescue team, and I had to be rescued if I hurt myself. My cousin also injured his foot, but he put You were rescued."

"So what?" Lu Xiaoman asked immediately.He actually knew the answer to this question, but he just couldn't accept it. "Am I trapped in a cave every day? So I have to be with Jin Cen?!"

Compared to Lu Xiaoman's harsh tone, Yan Yan replied quietly: "No matter what happens to you, my cousin will do better than me."

"Why do you think he is better than you in everything? There is only one person who has made me want to be with each other. Do you think it is you or your cousin?"

Yan Yan was silent for a long time.Finally, he said slowly: "My cousin has done it before, right?"

"—so you're messing with me now?"

Lu Xiaoman didn't know why he made this conversation sound like a quarrel, but Yan Yan wanted to take away what was most important to him, so he couldn't restrain his emotions.He felt that it was all the other party's fault.

Yan Yan, who had been avoiding Lu Xiaoman's gaze, finally raised his head. He was about to say something, but he forgot everything after meeting Lu Xiaoman's gaze.For a while, he only looked at Lu Xiaoman in surprise and panic. "Xiao Man, don't be sad..."

Lu Xiaoman wanted to say that he was angry, but he couldn't make a sound, as if his voice was choked in his throat.

All along, he didn't know how to decide the progress in a relationship, and he didn't know what to do on his own initiative at certain moments, but this time, he decided to give it a try.

Slowly raised his head to look at Yan Yan who finally looked directly at him, "Yan Yan, come back?" He heard the unbelievable weakness in his voice.

The next second, he found himself in a hug that nearly took his breath away.

"I'm sorry Xiaoman, I really don't know what I should do... I don't know what I was thinking at that time... I regret it very much, in fact, I started to regret it from the second I told you that I was leaving, That night I was walking around the community downstairs. In the morning, I found that my mobile phone was left at home. At that time, I was really resistant and happy. At that time, you didn't know how sad I was, and I was even very angry - obviously I wanted to bless you all, but...so I ran away, and at that time I had nothing but drunk myself..." Yan Yan's confession It came to an abrupt end.

Lu Xiaoman noticed that the person holding him suddenly became stiff.

"What's the matter, Yan Yan?"

"I'm sorry, Xiaoman, I'm sorry..." Yan Yan murmured to himself, instead of answering Lu Xiaoman's question, he hugged Lu Xiaoman even tighter.

Lu Xiaoman stretched out his hand and patted the other person's back soothingly.

"...I am no longer a better choice for you, but I..." Yan Yan said without thinking.

Lu Xiaoman recalled what Yan Yan said, and those strange reactions, and suddenly, a thought pierced his mind.

"You went to get drunk that day, and then?" He asked slightly away from the other party.

Yan Yan finally let go after a long silence: "I'm sorry, Xiaoman, I thought it was you, I was drunk, I thought it was you!"

Lu Xiaoman slowly relaxed his shoulders.It was a bit deliberate to do so, but actually, he really thought he should relax.It was just a one-night stand, and at that time Yan Yan thought that she and Lu Xiaoman were over, so it was not an affair.Coupled with the fact that he was drunk, those mistakes could be forgiven.Lu Xiaoman thought about it.In the end, he tried his best to give Yan Yan a relieved smile, followed by a half-truth and half-false warning: "Don't get drunk casually again in the future."

"I will never drink again!" Yan Yan raised his voice suddenly, as if he had come to life again, he didn't notice how unrealistic his promise was, and he was so serious that he took it seriously.

If Lu Xiaoman still had a grievance in his heart a second ago, seeing the familiar Yan Yan again made him really laugh: "If you don't drink anymore, we will sell all your collections, probably The money can buy a sports car?"

The wine lover nodded bitterly: "We'll change to a sports car just for you."

Lu Xiaoman continued seriously: "And when you want to drink, you can drink the gasoline of the sports car."

"Then we have to add at least No. 98 gasoline. I'm afraid I won't be used to low-grade gasoline."

Lu Xiaoman raised his eyebrows in surprise: "I thought you could only taste wine, but you can also taste gasoline?"

"I don't even know how to drink gasoline. How can I be your boyfriend? When I drink gasoline, I can run around with you in my arms."

Lu Xiaoman suppressed a smile and listened to the other party's nonsense. "You think you can hug me and run around? I don't think you can even hug me to bed."

Yan Yan immediately picked up Lu Xiaoman, still using a princess hug, "I want you to see if I can do it." He put Lu Xiaoman on the hotel bed, but as for saying "Can I do it", it was obviously not just about hugging her. The matter of touching Lu Xiaoman—just like Lu Xiaoman's provocation was not only aimed at Yan Yan's arm strength.

After a so-called "breakup," the two exchanged a long kiss on the bed.All passions are softened with care and cherishment.To recover what they lost.

Lu Xiaoman stared at the other party who was close at hand, and in order not to let any trace of suspicion affect their relationship, he opened his mouth and explained: "Jin Cen called you that day and wanted to ask why you suddenly rejected all the work, I was drunk , thought it was my mobile phone, so I connected the call. Jin Cen found that I was drinking too much, so he came to check - he didn't even help me take off my coat. I am very grateful to him. But the next day, I made it clear to him that I hope he never steps in to help us in the future. He said yes."

"I promise you too, Xiaoman," Yan Yan said while kissing the corner of Lu Xiaoman's eyes, "I will never let you show any sad expression again."

As an actor, Lu Xiaoman doesn't think this is realistic, "Then you have to be the director of every movie I have in the future." He replied jokingly.

...But he could feel how gentle Yan Yan's words were.

Yan Yan nodded seriously: "In the future, I will be the director of every movie of yours, so that you will always be a protagonist with nothing but happiness and happiness."

"——Then Director Yan, why don't you hurry up and dive into your protagonist first?"