look back and see him

Chapter 20

What happened later, Lu Xiaoman's memory is already blurred.He vaguely remembered the sound, and for some reason, suddenly felt that the sun was so dazzling that he almost blinded him.He also saw another stretcher, where Jin Cen was on.

... Then, he found himself waking up in a clean ward.

"Little Man."

Yan Yan's voice immediately reached Lu Xiaoman's ears.Only then did the latter see the person guarding the bedside.He couldn't help stretching out his right hand without a hanging needle.

"Why are you so haggard?"

Hearing this, Yan Yan immediately puffed up his chest, "Why? I have shaved and combed my hair specially. Look again, I am still very handsome!" The voice that was trying to cheer up finally trembled slightly, he There is no way to joke about it as if nothing had happened, and just grab Lu Xiaoman's hand that wants to caress his cheek.

"I thought I would never see you again...Xiao Man...I thought I would never see you again..."

"What you think is wrong. You thought you were more handsome than me. Look at you, you are always mistaken, right?" Lu Xiaoman replied with a light smile as if nothing had happened, but he also used enough strength to hold back Yan Yan's hand.Afterwards, he thought for a while, and the disasters that had happened in the past made him confirm and ask, "Is the earthquake not serious? Other places?"

Yan Yan quickly shook her head: "The epicenter is on that mountain."

Lu Xiaoman nodded, and then looked at the person beside the hospital bed: "I heard that you hurt your foot again? Are you okay? You can't dance anymore, and it won't be good if you can't walk anymore."

Yan Yan immediately raised his foot, "I'm fine," he said, his mood fell in an instant, "I'm really useless."

Lu Xiaoman said softly: "You are not a tool, can you sell it for money if you are useful?"

"I thought you... I had already given up..."

"After the golden 72 hours, it's normal for you to think that way."

"But," Yan Yan paused, unwilling to continue, "my cousin never gave up."

Mentioning Jin Cen, Lu Xiaoman asked, "I seem to have seen Jin Cen being carried on a stretcher?"

Yan Yan was silent for another moment before answering: "Cousin was injured by a stone when he entered the cave, and he lost a lot of blood. But now there is nothing serious."

Lu Xiaoman unconsciously recalled when Jin Cen found him.Maybe he wasn't thinking clearly at that time, but he remembered that Jin Cen's voice was so steady, without any weakness or pain.

"Are you going to see him?" Yan Yan asked in a low voice.

Lu Xiaoman noticed the slightly weird expression of the other party, with confusion and contradiction.

"I'll thank him when I'm better. Now you can help me visit him first." He tried to make Yan Yan understand who is his own. This is the way he tried his best when he was not good at expressing. .

Yan Yan's expression was a little relaxed. After thinking for a while, he made a decision: "When you fall asleep, I will go to see my cousin on your behalf. You can't get out of this room with my legs when you are awake."

Lu Xiaoman couldn't help laughing: "You really can't even walk with these legs."

"I don't need to be able to walk, it's enough that I can stand by your side."

Yan Yan's always serious love words made Lu Xiaoman very grateful that he survived at this moment.Despite his life...

After hesitating for a long time, he carefully asked, "Coach Wu's family?"

Yan Yan's expression was slightly heavy: "Coach Wu has a wife, who has been buried for Coach Wu with the help of the program team."

Lu Xiaoman was stunned: "How long have I been in a coma?"

"Two days."

"Why did Coach Wu get buried so quickly?"

Lu Xiaoman guessed that his face was not good-looking, because Yan Yan looked at him worriedly: "Cousin will take care of this matter as soon as possible after he comes out."

Lu Xiaoman felt very angry.Why did Jin Cen not allow him the opportunity to attend Coach Wu's funeral?

...but he knew why.

Jin Cen just didn't want him to attend the funeral.Lu Xiaoman couldn't remember what he had said in the cave, but Jin Cen must have felt that Lu Xiaoman was brooding over Coach Wu's death.

— But you have no power.

You don't have the right to take away my right to attend the funeral, you don't have the right to... protect me...

"Xiaoman?" Yan Yan whispered his name worriedly.

Lu Xiaoman tried his best to regain his senses: "What?"

Yan Yan stared at him for a long time. "It's a good thing you're still alive."

Due to Jinling's suppression of the media and the hospital's restrictions on visitors, Lu Xiaoman, who lives in the hospital, is relatively quiet, mainly because people from the program team came to visit him.However, on the second day after he woke up, he received an unexpected visitor.

The people on the hospital bed looked at Yang En who had traveled thousands of miles to this remote hospital.He guessed that the other party was probably here to visit his friend Jin Cen, but he was a little surprised to think of visiting him by the way.

As a result, Yang En ruthlessly denied his idea before he spoke. "I didn't come here specially to visit the sick."

"It's a good thing you made it clear before I thank you for visiting me."

Yang En ignored Lu Xiaoman's teasing, and continued with his expression unchanged: "I'm here to see a doctor for you."

Lu Xiaoman was a little puzzled: "I have a doctor from a hospital here, why are you here to see me?"

"Survivors of many disasters will have a serious sense of guilt. You may not know that this is actually a disease, and it will be fine if it is cured."

It took Lu Xiaoman a while to respond: "Did Jin Cen invite you here?"

"It doesn't matter who invites me here. I can ask you for the fee, or whoever charges the fee. The main thing is that you can't hide your illness and avoid treatment."

"But he doesn't know anything. It's not a disease, I am indeed," Lu Xiaoman didn't know how to explain this, "I was indeed the one who caused Coach Wu not to leave in time."

"Ms. Ye and the other two staff members described the situation at that time. At that time, you were at the front, and because you went down a slope, you couldn't leave in time, and you had to climb up with the help of Coach Wu..."

Even when facing Yan Yan, Lu Xiaoman may not be able to be so unreserved—or, on the contrary, when facing Yan Yan, he will be more attentive, instead of being as unscrupulous as when facing Dr. Yang.But Yang En is the most trustworthy psychiatrist in Lu Xiaoman's heart, which made him interrupt unconsciously and express his most sincere thoughts: "Later when I was alone, I still climbed up the steps, that is to say, when the earthquake happened At that time, I shouldn't have allowed Coach Wu to stay and pull me."

"So, after you successfully climbed the steps for the second time, did you start to feel that you killed Coach Wu? Or was it when you saw Coach Wu encounter an accident?"

Lu Xiaoman was stunned.It's true that he didn't feel guilty after climbing the steps, which means his reasons are not so precise.

"And then again, if you take the time to climb slowly, it's normal to be able to climb the steps. However, at that time, Coach Wu stayed to pull you up the steps quickly so that you could withdraw from the cave in time, so you can climb up the steps." The steps and the so-called 'killing Coach Wu' are two different things."

Lu Xiaoman slowly lowered his eyes: "When Coach Wu pulled me, I could see that he was a little nervous. At that time, I thought about letting him go first... If I could say it..."

This time it was Yang En's turn to interrupt Lu Xiaoman: "If you really say it, how hypocritical is that? No normal person would let the person who helped him go first when his life was in danger and he was in a hurry to climb the steps." .Or, do you really consider yourself a saint?"

He is certainly not a saint.That's why he didn't really let Coach Wu leave... But, if he knew what happened later...

"No one knows what will happen later." As if he knew what Lu Xiaoman was thinking, Yang En definitely spoke. After a pause, his tone was slightly soft, "You must have seen that scene? The scene of Coach Wu's accident .Sometimes the visual impact hits people hard."

"...I just watched such a huge rock hit Coach Wu..." Lu Xiaoman finally let his emotions indulge in weakness, and he let go as if to himself.

Yang En nodded: "As long as you believe that you are sick, we can cure you."

Lu Xiaoman wanted to say that maybe he didn't want to heal.However, before that, Yang En had already changed the subject: "Although I'm not here to visit you, I have a friend who came with me specially to visit you."

Lu Xiaoman immediately guessed: "Lin Dun?"

Yang En paused in extremely rare surprise: "How do you know?"

Lu Xiaoman shrugged, "Didn't you say you only have one friend?" In fact, he didn't take this sentence very seriously. He wanted to avoid the question about Jin Cen before, so he didn't mention it. Rest assured, this made him ask quite naturally, "If Jin Cen is not your friend, then what is he to you? Is it You Lemei?"

Yang En shook his head solemnly: "He is not my cup of milk tea."

"So, is Mr. Lin here too?" Lu Xiaoman returned to the previous topic. Although it was not as exaggerated as hitting it off at first sight, he was quite happy to meet Lin Dun, and he just happened to have something else he wanted to ask him.

Facing his question, Yang En nodded quickly: "Because I wanted to talk to you privately first, Lin Ton went to buy condolences by himself. He asked me to make sure he wouldn't be stopped outside the door."

"If he is stopped outside, I can meet him outside the door."

Yang En unconsciously took a closer look at Lu Xiaoman: "Were you particularly good at chasing girls before?"

Lu Xiaoman said without hesitation, "I'm usually the one being chased."

...But in fact, very few girls chase him.Usually the ones he meets are men.He didn't elaborate on the circumstances, which clearly didn't do him any good.

Yang En quickly skipped this topic: "If you are not in a hurry to rest, I will go out and send him a message, let him come here now?"

"There's no rush, just wait until he buys the condolences and then come over."

Yang En suddenly looked indescribable, like an experienced person, he gave Lu Xiaoman an unpredictable look, and kindly reminded: "You may not like his condolences."