look back and see him

Chapter 14

It took Lu Xiaoman a lot of effort to finally convince Yan Yan to hide the relationship between the two for the time being.He can understand why, it's not that he doesn't have enough awareness to face all the problems with Yan Yan to be able to be together, it's just that he doesn't have so much confidence and always feels that there is no way to really solve these problems at present.And if they can't be solved, why create these problems?

Yan Yan, wearing a hat and mask, helped move Lu Xiaoman's luggage to the nearest hotel, which happened to be a small amount.

"Xiao Man, just wait, I'll take you home soon." The person who had played too many TV dramas said it affectionately before leaving, and he didn't know why he was so emotional.

But Lu Xiaoman didn't laugh at the other party, he grabbed the person who was about to turn around. "We all opened the room together, and you just left?"

Yan Yan, the driver of the new car on the road, didn't understand for a while, he said in a daze, "Isn't it my parents who want to come?"

"Aren't they arriving tomorrow?"

The next day, Lu Xiaoman did not go to "inspect" Yan Yan's dance practice, but came to Dr. Yang's company on time according to the appointment time.

Although Lu Xiaoman has only met Yang En twice so far, generally speaking, he is a psychiatrist who talks a lot, but Lu Xiaoman can feel that he has indeed let his guard down a little.He always felt that what happened two years ago was nothing to talk about, but now he changed his mind and thought that he could talk to a doctor.

Because he was familiar with Yang En's company, after arriving, Lu Xiaoman didn't let the busy front desk lady lead the way, but walked to the company lobby by himself.He bumped into a young man who was walking very fast around the corner... Frustratingly, he was fine and nearly fell over.

"Sorry, are you okay?" The other party quickly reached out to help Lu Xiaoman.

Lu Xiaoman, who finally stood firm, was able to look at a man who was not tall, but whose figure was sexy enough to be an underwear model. "It's okay, it doesn't matter." He replied.

The man who let go of Lu Xiaoman's arm did not walk away directly after this little accident. On the contrary, he smiled at Lu Xiaoman with a natural expression: "I am an employee of this company, who are you looking for? I will take you there. "

Lu Xiaoman, who is used to seeing handsome guys in the entertainment industry, doesn't think that young men have particularly outstanding appearances. His eyes are too round and he has lost his qualifications for handsome guys, but his handsome smile is invincible. Lu Xiaoman didn't even realize the other party's self How unnatural it is to be acquainted, I didn't think of declining it at all, I just thought it was very reasonable and obediently replied: "I'm looking for Mr. Yang."

"Come with me, Mr. Yang's office is hard to find."

A person who is said to be a company employee said.

Anyone who is not an employee of this company knows that Mr. Yang's office is not difficult to find at all.Lu Xiaoman finally looked at the other party who led him in the wrong direction with a little doubt.

The young man casually gossiped: "Speaking of which, Mr. Yang is really nice, but sometimes I think he is very good at bragging."

I don't know if it is popular in the workplace to speak ill of one's boss, Lu Xiaoman squinted at the strange people around him.This is a regular company, and he is not afraid of any danger, which makes him curious to see what medicine is sold in the other party's gourd. "Why does Mr. Yang like bragging?"

"Mr. Yang knows that I like a celebrity named Ding Yu. Not long ago, he suddenly gave me a signed photo, saying that it was signed by Ding Yu himself. You know, Ding Yu has disappeared for two years. How could Mr. Yang really take the photo?" See his photo? This autographed photo is probably a fake. Tell me, Mr. Yang, are you a good braggart?"

The amount of information brought by a man's quiet exploration is huge.Lu Xiaoman didn't mind that he was probably suspected by the other party, but he carefully re-observed the "friend" in Yang En's legend.

"You are Lin Dun, right?" He still remembered who he signed to, "I heard Mr. Yang mentioned you. So, of course you know that Mr. Yang is not bragging."

Lu Xiaoman's vague acquiescence caused Lin Dun's eyes to flash brightly: "Are you really Ding Yu? If it wasn't for your signature, I really wouldn't dare to think so."

"Although I still have Ding Yu on my ID card, I'm used to being called Lu Xiaoman now."

"It must be because the day you were born was Xiaoman?" Lin Dun immediately sensed the connection between Lu Xiaoman and Ding Yu's birthday number.He wanted to say something more, but a phone ringing interrupted him. "Sorry, can you wait for a minute?"

Lu Xiaoman didn't think that he was qualified to have any fans for a long time - to put it badly, he didn't think that anyone was qualified to be anyone's fans including him.In this world, there may not even be enough trust between friends you know, let alone between idols and fans.However, Lin Ton's surprise and warm smile made him nod subconsciously, as if it was necessary for Lin Ton and him to have a chat.

In order to give Lin Dun enough room to make a call, Lu Xiaoman walked a little further away.However, Lin Dun didn't care about talking on the phone with a normal volume. "Every time I come to Yang En, you always come to me for something. Are we filming a TV series?" His playful teasing sounds nothing special, but there is a special softness in his voice.Lu Xiaoman has acted in many plays, he knows when a person will use this tone.Thinking of Yang En who said that his friend was very special, Lu Xiaoman unconsciously glanced at the person who continued talking on the phone in surprise.

"...If Yangzi knows that you doubt him, he'll die laughing... All right, you're in the car, it doesn't matter if you stop by the side of the road. I'll come out right away, don't worry. Hang up first."

Lin Dun turned to Lu Xiaoman after hanging up the phone.In the phone call just now, he didn't show any anxiety at all, but after hanging up the phone, he looked like "turning his heart like an arrow".He subconsciously sped up his speech a little, "It's really nice to meet you, Mr. Lu. Thank you for your signature." After a pause, he started another topic, "Although Yang En doesn't brag, he is very resourceful. It was he who asked me to come to him at this time, and I probably know your itinerary. He must have secretly arranged for us to meet. He is not the kind of intimate sister who will specially arrange surprises and find a chance for friends to meet their idols. So, I Guess he wanted me to say those things to you—I don't know why, and it might be a bit of a faux pas, but I think there's always something in Young's arrangement. I should have said those things to you."

Lu Xiaoman, who also acted in a spy war movie, almost felt that he had traveled into a certain conspiracy. He didn’t know if Yang En’s actions were so meaningful. It was just because of the situation they encountered that Lin Dun walked out of such a maze. Come, he has already opened his eyes.

"So, what do you want to say?" Lu Xiaoman asked.

"Back then you got the video surveillance video. You were wronged and scolded by so many people, but you didn't testify yourself when you had evidence, and you didn't say a word in the end. I think you are really a man. But, the words Then again, it's cool that you don't give a chance to people who let you down, but if you stop trusting people because of it - of course, everyone has the right to be afraid - it's just that if you can be braver , then the world is really invincible." Lin Dun said and took a step back, "Sorry, Mr. Lu, I am so outspoken when I speak. I hope you won't ask for your autograph back. I have something to do first. Farewell."

Lu Xiaoman began to believe that maybe this was really arranged by his psychiatrist. He didn't know that his biggest problem was not being brave enough.It's just that he never told himself that, and never let anyone tell him that.

I don't know if it's because of the cars parked downstairs or the people who walked fast by nature and disappeared at the corner of the corridor.Lu Xiaoman usually didn't feel that his brain was turning slowly. As a result, when he met someone who moved faster, he realized a suspicious point only after the other person disappeared——

Why did Lin Dun know that he had obtained the video?

But Lu Xiaoman didn't worry too much about this issue.Maybe there will be a chance to ask the other party in the future, and he feels that he should see Lin Dun again.

In the following psychotherapy sessions, Lu Xiaoman talked about his negative emotions so naturally for the first time.Talking about the fact that he felt deceived by the things he cherished, about the purely malicious injuries, about the fact that there are no fair rules in this world... about the man he once loved so deeply...

As a psychiatrist who runs a software company, Yang En professionally did not react any differently to the behavior of his friend Jin Cen mentioned by Lu Xiaoman.He didn't release Lu Xiaoman either.Roughly, at certain moments, it is an understatement like a movie audience to make a comment or two.

When Lu Xiaoman looked back on the past, he couldn't help thinking of the explanation Jin Cen gave later.Jin Cen said that at that time he would deliberately be mean to Ding Yu because Ding Yu was different, and Lu Xiaoman could not understand this kind of mentality. For a moment, he wanted to ask someone who understands psychology whether this behavior pattern is really trustworthy. But in the end, I didn't ask the exit.

After all, for him now, this matter is irrelevant.

The truth of the matter is irrelevant.

Jin Cen is irrelevant.